by Marilyn on February 27, 2003
H eventually settled down, of course. But only after I went in and laid the smack down. 
K has no effect on that boy. But he can’t resist my charms. 
Okay, well maybe “charm” is the wrong word. I’m stern and no-nonsense. He knows not to mess around with mama.
Today was… okay. I almost want to say nice but that might be an exaggeration. But it wasn’t bad. I mean, the two week wait is killing me. I can’t believe I have a whole ‘nother week to go. I won’t test before Wednesday. All the gals on my message board are out of their minds about this. They can’t believe I’m waiting that long. THe thing is, I really don’t want to see a :bfn. With H, I waited four extra days. So 14 dpo is pretty early for me.
Urgh.
Charter Cable just sent us another check today. This time for $70!! We have to pay them yet they send us money. It makes no sense. Tonight we went down to the Eldorado and cashed it. Then we went to IHOP for the stuffed french toast. OMG, it was so heavenly. Just as good, if not better, than I expected. Yum!! So that was nice. I guess that’s why I feel good about today. And we’re watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding. Finally!
by Marilyn on February 26, 2003
Okay, not so good with the lying. I have no excuse for not posting yesterday.
I took H to storytime at the library. As usual, he had a blast. It gets him out of the house and among his peers. I also like to think it helps him get used to a school-like setting. Like I said, he loves it. He enjoys the stories but he really gets into the songs. I wish there were more programs like that to take him to.
Even now I can hear him in his room; screaming at the cat, most likely. He took a nap with me this afternoon so I’m not surprised he’s not asleep yet.
We had lunch with K today. On a Wednesday because Friday is “Shopping Day.” H was on his best behavior, thank goodness. And I did my best to eat healthy. Aren’t I a good girl?
I’ve stayed true to my word and obsessed less. I released another update for my site today. Elaine and I are working on 3d models. That should be interesting. It’ll keep my mind off TTC at any rate.
OMG, they have stuffed french toast at IHOP! Ever since I read about it in Linda’s diary at preconception.com, I’ve been dying to try it. Yay! So, sounds like we’ll be trying that out Friday night for dinner. I’m so excited! Calorie City, but it’ll be worth it. Okay, now I’m hungry.
We’re watching The Fifth Element. Such a great movie. I don’t even know how many times we’ve seen this. But it’s a classic.
Oh great, now H’s crying about something. Good Lord. I hope he just settles down and goes to sleep soon. I think he’s upset at the cat. I better go check. Laters!
by Marilyn on February 24, 2003
It’s later on…same day. K and I are watching The Dangerous Lives of Altar Boys. It’s actually pretty amusing. That’s the nice thing about Netflix, you get to watch movies you may not have picked out otherwise and find some that are really actually pretty good that way. Right now the movie is paused while K makes us some popcorn. Ooh! He just brought me some cottage cheese too. And some Crystal Light. What a guy!
After I wrote earlier, I made a conscious effort and made some Sims stuff. I only posted a couple times on my buddy group and that was mostly non-TTC stuff. Aren’t I being good?
The movie is back on so I should wrap this up. More tomorrow!
by Marilyn on February 24, 2003
cycle #1, 5 dpo (days past ovulation)
Well, here goes! I wanted to put this journal off until I was pregnant. But it’s already been two years and I’m liable to be waiting for the rest of my life.
I am, however, on my first cycle with Clomid. That gives me some hope. Though I do read every day about women who seem to be in teh same boat as I am, take Clomid and still can’t seem to conceive. So I’m not sure what to think. I hate to have hope and then have those hopes dashed. I went through that before.
I have been overly obsessive this month though. :sigh I spend a lot of time online, cruising ttc boards and reading people’s stories. And I think it can’t be good for me. I should be trying to take my mind off this nonsense.
I really should be working on my Sims website. I have all sorts of ideas for things to make. I just keep venturing off to look at TTC stuff everytime I sit in front of the computer. I really need to make myself do it. I know it would be good for me to get away from TTC in this two week wait.
And Joe will start up another online Survivor game, possibly in April. Those always help me to take my mind off stuff. I know, I’m crazy to even consider doing another game, but I vow to remain detached this time. And I truly want to play evil. I just hope I can do it.
Isn’t this a nice blog? I was just drawn to it. I hope in the weeks to come, it is filled with excited plans about baby names, showers and car seats. Not heartbreak after heartbreak. Time will tell, I suppose. I just so want to be pregnant. Keeping my fingers crossed!
