Well, here goes! I wanted to put this journal off until I was pregnant. But it’s already been two years and I’m liable to be waiting for the rest of my life. 
I am, however, on my first cycle with Clomid. That gives me some hope. Though I do read every day about women who seem to be in teh same boat as I am, take Clomid and still can’t seem to conceive. So I’m not sure what to think. I hate to have hope and then have those hopes dashed. I went through that before.
I have been overly obsessive this month though. :sigh I spend a lot of time online, cruising ttc boards and reading people’s stories. And I think it can’t be good for me. I should be trying to take my mind off this nonsense.
I really should be working on my Sims website. I have all sorts of ideas for things to make. I just keep venturing off to look at TTC stuff everytime I sit in front of the computer. I really need to make myself do it. I know it would be good for me to get away from TTC in this two week wait.
And Joe will start up another online Survivor game, possibly in April. Those always help me to take my mind off stuff. I know, I’m crazy to even consider doing another game, but I vow to remain detached this time. And I truly want to play evil. I just hope I can do it.
Isn’t this a nice blog? I was just drawn to it. I hope in the weeks to come, it is filled with excited plans about baby names, showers and car seats. Not heartbreak after heartbreak. Time will tell, I suppose. I just so want to be pregnant. Keeping my fingers crossed!
