by Marilyn on May 14, 2003
My parents are in town! H’s really enjoying them. They came yesterday and we went to eat at Mimi’s Cafe. Albeit, my mom really wanted to go a buffet downtown. Oh well.
Then today, Mom and I went to breakfast at IHOP and H and Dad went to Krispy Kreme and to Lowes. My dad bought him some flowers to put in his own garden. Aww… H was so proud of them.
Then, later on today my dad took him to the park. Which, of course, he LOVED. Then he took H to get ice cream. Talk about icing on the cake! So H had a great day. Right now he’s cranky as HECK. He won’t go to sleep and he’s crying. Poor guy.
I’m watching the season finale of Friends. It’s good! It’s only 8:48 right now, and I think it’s supposed to end at 9:15 so we’ve got some time left. 
by Marilyn on May 11, 2003
Ahh, the night of my last entry I about creamed myself by stepping in H’s wagon and cracking the back of my head against the corner of the coffee table. Ouch! That hurt, let me tell you.
Today was Mother’s Day. It’s been a good day. K made me breakfast in bed and brought it in on a new bed tray. Very nice! Flowers, a journal and a gift card to Barnes and Noble. So I did pretty good. Right now we’re watching X-men on FX. We saw the sequel in the theater last Sunday. K is going to me shrimp scampi for dinner. Mmm!
K is staining the coffee table and putting a coat of glossy polyurethane on it. We’ve been meaning to do that for a while now. It already looks much better and he’s not even done with it yet.
Not much else going on. My parents are coming on Wednesday. H hasn’t seen them in a while so that’ll be nice.
by Marilyn on May 8, 2003
I’ve still got some apathy and bitterness going. But I need to keep the faith. I guess at this early stage it’s just better not to think about it.
I have been MUDDing a lot. Well, that’s pretty much all I’ve been doing. I don’t think I’ll go back to Infernal Abyss though. No one gets on anymore and no one group exp’s either. I think I need to find a new “home”.
Joe’s next game started too. It’s not off to such a great start. Already our tribe has lost immunity and is going to Tribal Council. I don’t think I’ll be voted out this time. I don’t think it’ll matter. The game is doomed.
Gee, I’m just sweetness and light, aren’t I?
Where the heck is K? It’s 6:30pm and no sign of him. :dry H and I are both just dying of hunger here. He better be home soon!
by Marilyn on May 5, 2003
Day one of two. I don’t really know. Don’t really care, either. Yeah, cycle 3 was a bust. I think I lost a lot of hope. I mean, I’d been focusing on the 3 month rule. 1st three months of Clomid, 3 months after the HSG… that’s when your chances are high. But now. My chances are gone. Or low. Even though now my thyroid is fine (or so I hope) my chances are still good. Better than the first two months, at least.
It’s just hard to keep caring. It makes my soul *hurt* to keep it up. I’m glad I’m off meds this month. Good thing we didn’t have the money, eh? I’ll be “temping” and will probably use up the last of the OPKs.
I will try to keep my spirits up. It’s just *so* hard to hope each month. And dream. 
But I have to have faith that it’ll happen in good time.
