August 2003

Another day. My head is killing me! I have a monster headache but I’m reluctant to take anything. I think I’m going to have to, though. It’s really awful.

Woot! Back to the Future III is on! I’ve been kinda wanting to see this. It’s on Dinner and a Movie on TBS. I found out this morning while I was watching Dawson’s Creek. I love that show!

There, I just took two Tylenol. Hopefully that’ll do the trick.

I should have worked on Wednesday’s update today. I just couldn’t motivate. I’m still not sure what to make. Since K may take tomorrow off, I’m not sure how much I’ll get done. Oh well.

I was supposed to take a shower today too and I didn’t. I napped away the morning and then spent the afternoon on the computer, playing Civilization 2. Slacker! Maybe later on this evening. I may not have time in the morning since my appointment is at 8:30 am.

Yep, ultrasound day. I’m making an effort to be positive. I want to expect the heartbeat. I want to see it! I want to feel that joy. The relief. I want tomorrow to be a *good* day. You know? Wait, wait, wait. I’ll know tomorrow.

K also has to register the van tomorrow. I hope we don’t have to get it smogged too. I’ll feel better when we’ve got plates.

Shoot, I’ll feel better about a lot of things after tomorrow. Why do I get the feeling I’m not going to sleep well tonight? I’m just going to have to force myself to relax.

Woo hoo! Eight weeks! I suppose I could be happier about the milestone if the u/s were over and done with but no.

So today. We went to church, and despite getting my hackles up over a few things in Pastor Joe’s sermon, it wen’t pretty okay. After that we went to Mimi’s for lunch. I could live on their french onion soup alone. It’s SO good. And my BLT was particularly good too. H started to act like a turd towards the end of the meal, though.

Then we went to Barnes and Noble. I picked out a bunch of pregnancy books. H was playing with the train set so K was sitting with him. Apparently, some other kids came over to play with the train and H just was isn’t so good at playing well with others. So he threw a fit and we had to leave in shame. :blush

It was pretty mortifying.

We were going to go home but ended up going to to Target. I got a purple-ish body pillow! That was nice. But for the most part the day was shot.

When we got home, I took a nap for about an hour and a half. I woke up a little groggy, but feeling more rested.

K’s making dinner. I know we’re having green beans from the garden and chicken of some sort but that’s all I know. I am intrigued though.

During my brief stint at the bookstore, I did read that most miscarriages happen before eight weks. BUT. I haven’t had my ultrasound yet. It’s a little late and that can change everything. AND my hypothyroidism adds another element of risk to the whole thing. Have I mentioned how much I dislike this friggin’ condition??

K had to go into work today. Just from 11:00-3:00, but it still kinda shot our day to heck. Stupid university.

Well, we’ll have tomorrow. We’ll have to make up for it.

We did stay in bed fairly late, as least by my standards. About 9:00am. It felt good though. Then, K made me toast with jam, maple sausage and a hardboiled egg done up deviled-style. Yummy!It’s so hard finding things I like or want to eat these days so it was pretty amazing.

When K got home, he brought a salad and I tore into that. So I guess the healthy food kick isn’t just my imagination. It actually does taste better to me right now.

We just watched Grease and now we’re watching the “Behind the Movie” on it. Kinda interesting.

We did go out briefly to Super K. Just to look around mostly. The only thing I bought was a Vanilla Coke (yum!). I did check out their maternity clothes. Some cute stuff, most their shirts. But they did have some nice knit pants and shorts. Plus, the prices were right. I’ll have to keep it in mind.

We had tacos for dinner, finally. I though we were going to have them last night but we ended up going to IHOP. I was so hungry that I was feeling a little ill. So I ordered the plain french toast and that tasted pretty good. I really gotta not let myself get so hungry. At least not at this stage in the game.

Perhaps I spoke too soon on the entry yesterday. There were several reports today of bad ultrasounds. One gal came as a total shock. She’d been one of the more active members of both of my pregnancy boards. She’d been having horrible morning sickness. She even measured over 8 weeks. But on her ultrasound, there was only an empty sac. Gosh, I can’t imagine.

So now I’m really freaked out about my ultrasound on Thursday. I’ve convinced myself that is what is going to happen to me. Gosh, I need to freshen my outlook here. I need to find my faith that this will be okay. It is hard, especially with all the doom and gloom on the boards. It’s almost like I don’t see the good news, only the bad.

Well, I gotta shake out of it. I don’t want this ruining my weekend. I’ve looked forward to this break in the week too much.

We went and had lunch with K today. He showed us the new dining facility. It’s amazing! Very big, which is good. The old DC was just getting extremely cramped. I never really noticed *how* cramped until today. Those students are SO lucky.

It may open next weekend. I’m anxious to see how it all goes.

More nice weather today though more sun than I prefer. The garden will like it, especially combined with the rain. Let’s go, pumpkins! And tomatoes and corn and beans and carrots…. Let’s go garden!

Ooh, all sorts of intrique on Touched by an Angel… too bad I’ve figured it all out already. *snort*

I would suggest a drive-in but there aren’t really any good movies playing there. H keeps chanting pizza. Hmm. Pizza or tacos for dinner?