Why do I bother??

by Marilyn on March 17, 2005

Okay, as evidenced by my earlier post, I’m sorta in a funk today. I don’t know why. Could be the impending :bfn or March 23rd rearing it’s disfigured head. Anyhow, I was trying to get over it. Really I was.

I put on a green sweater and even spent a large, large, large portion of my day trying to find suitable Irish/Celtic music that we could play on our stereo while fixing dinner and eating. It’s something we usually do every year to celebrate. I finally found this great band called the Brobdingnagian Bards and snagged a few of their fantastic songs (I’m partial to “If I had a Million Ducats”). I lovingly burned the cd and had just finished when my loved ones arrived home. I went downstairs in put the cd into the stereo so we could all enjoy.

Everything’s fine for the first two minutes. K goes through the mail and finds out we’re being charged twice for our garbage. Once for here and once for the house we moved out of TEN MONTHS AGO. (If we want to have our facts straight, I kept “pestering” K to cancel the garbage service… he says he’s pretty sure he did.) I wonder if we’ve been getting bills for this other house this whole time. He doesn’t know. This makes me start to wonder. “But you’ve been paying the bill for the garbage here, right?” No, of course not! Don’t be silly! OMFG…

But okay, I’m willing to look past all this and enjoy our evening together. I haven’t seen anyone ALL DAY LONG and I’m sorta starved for family time. While the music is playing and K is peeling potatoes for our corned beef hash, I’m doing the dishes, loading the dishwasher. But K keeps grumbling, swearing and being generally pissy. That good ol’ stress level of mine that I worked so hard all day to keep down just finally skyrocketed. I started upstairs, telling him that I didn’t want to spend any time with him until he got himself in a better mood.

So I’m up here blowing off steam, surfing BlogExplosion. Not five minutes after I left the room, H starts campagning to watch the Simpsons. K says okay and they turn off the music in favor of the idiot tube.

:sigh

I fucking give up.

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Not so much

by Marilyn on March 17, 2005

There’s a couple “not so much”s in my life right now. Being that I’m a blog whore, I’m going to share them with you.

  1. Not so much with the wearing of the green. I’m still in my pj’s and they are decidedly not green (though they are yellow and periwinkle…I imagine you could mix the two and GET green). I don’t have any big desire to get out of my pj’s today either. Which means I’m probably in for a serious pinching this evening when the boys get home (and I already got pinched pretty darned hard by the Boy this morning. Ouch!).
  2. Not so much with the being pregnant. Of course I don’t have proof yet, the test isn’t until Saturday. Yet even with progesterone I’ve noticed more than a couple cramps lately and I’ve had some spotting…very, very light spotting but it’s there, nonetheless. That tells me that progesterone or no, this cycle is a bust and is just dying to get this waiting over with. Fantastic.

So I’m feeling a little moody right now. And a little hungry. K gave me some rather stale cereal for breakfast this morning and I just couldn’t eat it. Was like eating chewy cardboard. And of course I can’t bring myself to hobble down the stairs and get something to eat and hobble back up. :sigh

So on that happy note, I’ll wish everyone a Happy St. Paddy’s Day. *PINCH* if you’re not wearing green. :gl

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