Archive for April 2005

I made it through my parents visit. I even got the place looking halfway decent by the time they got here. Miracles, all around. :) The visit went pretty well. There was some unsolicited advice as well as cleaning comments (as I predicted) such as, “Your sugar bowl needs a little attention.” :doh

They purchased us a beautiful lilac bush for our front yard, which was nice. It was done in Jackson’s memory so we will always have that reminder of him. That was very nice of them. Plus, I love lilacs and it will be so nice to smell them each spring when it blooms. Yay!

They made it in time for the t-ball game wednesday and took us out to eat at one of the casinos buffets afterward. A free meal is a free meal, right? And we had a good time. And H was so excited to see his grandparents. We took them out to eat last night to TGI Friday’s for an early Mother’s Day celebration. That was also a lot of fun and my dad bought us a round of margaritas which of course helped us to enjoy ourselves. :)

They just left, heading back west to that crazy placed called California. I’m not sure when we’ll see them next. We plan to go down there and visit in August so that is probably when.

I have my hair appointment in two hours. :D I am so excited for it. I even woke up in the middle of the night last night and had a hard time going back to sleep for thinking about it. :) Provided I look halfway decent, I will consider posting a picture. But I have picture issues. As in, I don’t like looking at myself. ;) We’ll see.

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What is it about our mothers coming to visit that turns us into compulsive house cleaners? Okay, so I’ll be the first to admit that the house needed a little cleaning. A lot of cleaning. But this is the sort that has me vacuuming the baseboards with the little wedge attachment. Windexing the windows on the china cabinet. Polishing the top of the toaster.

It’s a sickness! Someone save me!

So my parents are coming to town today. Now, I’m pretty sure they won’t be here at the house until tomorrow sometime, but who knows if I’m going to have to time to clean tonight what with H’s first t-ball game or tomorrow at all? So now it is.

I’m beat.

Regardless of my valient effort, I know my mother will find *something* that’s not quite clean enough or whatever and she will point it out. Or make her, “Now that you’re homeowners you have to take care of your house” speech again. :dry Be still my heart. I can barely wait.

I guess I’d better get back to it. The doorknobs need polishing. :-P

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So tonight was the first time I’ve been disappointed in Rob and Amber since the start of the race. I mean, really disappointed. I was a little upset when they didn’t stop and check on the Brothers when their truck rolled. But tonight they dissed hard on Uchenna and Joyce and that just ain’t right.

So karma came and bit them in the rear. Ron and Kelly too (I think mostly for her horrible comments to him about getting out of the army by being a POW). Rob teased Gretchen and Meredith about an earlier flight to Turkey and so they investigated and there *was* an earlier flight. But Rob and Amber with Ron and Kelly got the later flight. Har! That was excellent.

But it was a non-elimination leg, like I thought it’d be. Rats. I guess I’ll have to be satisfied with everything Ron and Kelly have being taken away from them. :) That will be very nice to see.

Oh, and Uchenna and Joyce? Still my favorites. I *love* that team. Joyce is my hero.

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Before you think this just sounds like me trying to convince myself, let me just explain: I think all of these reasons are very valid. Call it the “silver lining” if you must. Or examples of how destiny is working itself out in our favor. And lets be honest, I probably *am* trying to convince myself. So without further ado, here are the top reasons why not having a baby right now is a good thing for us:

• H wasn’t ready. We were still hip-deep in potty training issues with him, unfortunately. He’s not 100% perfect in that regard yet but things have gotten a lot better. Last year at this time, we were having nothing but trouble with him. He’s a sensitive kid. Changes affect him big time. When we put him in preschool back in September, he had some potty regression big time that took weeks to sort out. Even his behavior regressed. And that was just preschool. With a baby in the house, we wouldn’t have been as able to look after his needs while he was getting his feet under him. Which leads me to the next reason.
• H will be in school. With H in school when and if a baby arrives, I think he will be better able to deal with the changes. He will have a life outside of our house, new friends and new things going on. A baby would sap up a lot of our attention and having a life other than us, H wouldn’t have as a hard a time adjusting to it all. Plus, with him in school I will be able to attend doctor appointments and whatnot while he’s there and not have to worry about taking him with me. Never much fun for a little boy. Add to that, I could nap while he’s at school (I’m notorious for sleepiness when pregnant) and when the baby was born, that would a good opportunity to bond with the baby, nap, and/or get things done.
• The age difference. For the longest time I would count the months every time I ovulated, mentally figuring H’s age when the baby would be born. I wanted so badly for him to have a sibling who was close in age to him. I wanted him to have that closeness, and that friendship. Each month lost was another month my son was going to grow older without a sibling to keep him company. But I’m coming to terms with that. In fact, I’m starting to see where this age difference could be a *good* thing. For one thing, there will be a lot less competition. My sister and I were 8 years apart and besides her constant tormenting of me, we didn’t really argue or fight. I idolized her, in fact. H would be the awesome older brother and there would be less conflict. H could help teach the baby new things, watch the sibling when he got older and help out a lot more than he could even just a year ago.
• Maybe I wasn’t ready. Oh, I know I thought I was. But maybe I wasn’t. Maybe I just hadn’t truly come to terms with another child living among us. Its no small incidence that we’ve gotten used to being just the three of us. We’re used to functioning as a threesome. We know each others moods and how to deal with one another. It’s comfortable. Add to that is last year as I was nearing the end of my pregnancy, I was feeling anxious at the thought of suddenly having a new baby among us. I knew it would throw our lives into turmoil. Did I want that turmoil? You bet your sweep bippy I did! But I don’t know as if I could have handled it as well then as I can now. I feel I’ve mellowed out a lot about a lot of these issues in the last year.

I could probably go on and on until you were asleep at your computer. The fact of the matter is, things are the way they are for a *reason*. I’m sure of that. This is what’s best for us. God didn’t necessarily want Jack to be taken from us, but he is showing me how things are working out the way they were supposed to. Now, do I know if God wants us to have another baby? I don’t really know. I do feel that he isn’t ready for us to quit trying yet. I’m not ready to quit trying. And when it happens, it will be right.

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