From the monthly archives:

April 2005

Bad Blogger

by Marilyn on April 23, 2005

Wow, two days during the week that I haven’t posted? No, I haven’t been on vacation. I haven’t even been *that* busy. So basically, I have no excuse for why I haven’t posted. None whatsoever.

So I went to get probed by Shannon on Wednesday morning before my MOPS meeting. That went well. And I did ask about “future plans”. She said that three cycles of clomid is their “magic number” and if nothing happens by then, they schedule an appointment for us to meet with head R.E. man himself. I’m assuming this is to talk about doing IUI or IVF.

See, I thought I might be ready for IUI but I’m not so sure. I mean, even if is with Clomid and not injectibles (though considering how few follies I tend to have on Clomid, I kinda doubt they’d go that route) , I’m still intimidated by the process. Even though I *know* it’s a relatively simple process. It’s just the next step and I hate to think we have to take that. I hope that makes sense.

Looking back, according to the RE’s office, I only had four cycles of Clomid before I conceived. (I had five, but one cycle I didn’t go in to get monitored and never told them :blush) And they had me make an appointment to talk to the head R.E. man himself that I made at the start of the fourth cycle. And, I recall there was some question as to whether I was going to try Clomid that month or not. So I guess this whole thing is true to their form.

Hopefully, we won’t have to take it to that point. Hopefully, this’ll be the month. ;)

That’s about it news-wise around here. My parents are coming this next week and the cleaning has already commenced. They’re actually going to be staying here for two nights, which they never do, so I’m going to have to make sure everything is cleaner than usual! :P

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Best Amazing Race EVER

by Marilyn on April 20, 2005

Okay, that *could* be an overstatement. But I enjoyed the episode heartily. For several reasons.

  • Uchenna and Joyce - They are my new heros. I mean, I loved this team before but now? Total unwavering devotion. They went for the Fast Forward which required both team members having a shaved head. Uchenna…well, he was already there. But Joyce didn’t even hesitate. She went for it. She knew they needed it. SHE IS SO BRAVE. Honestly, if put in her same place I don’t know if I could have my head shaved. Course, it helped had a ‘do rag handy to cover her head with afterward. But still. I have so much respect for them now. Not that I didn’t before, but honestly, they are exactly how I want to be when I grow up. :) I truly hope they win this thing.
  • Gretchen and Meredith - I’m glad they weren’t eliminated. Even though Gretchen was starting to freak me out with her “atop the elephant” shrieking and they were getting awful snippy with one another at the “camel-block”. They’re officially the oldest couple to have made it this far and that in itself is super awesome.
  • The Boyfriends - ARE GONE. I’m so happy about this. The sad thing is I sorta liked Alex. He was okay. But I just couldn’t tolerate Lynn and his awful comments. Each week something would come out of his mouth that would just horrify me. I’m so glad they’re gone and I won’t have to listen to their bitching any more. Sorta like how I was SO glad last week when Coby was booted off Survivor. Gay guys are great. Gay guys who do nothing but bitch and moan get old real fast.

A few other observations:
Rob and Amber got married! Yeah, I mean, they were engaged and all but still the wedding was sort of a surprise to me. I expected more hype. ;) Still, good for them. It sort of validates their entire relationship and from what I’ve seen so far on AR, I think they’re pretty well suited to one another.

Kelly is going straight to hell. I don’t care if she *is* a beauty queen who voted for Bush and poses with American flags in her spare time… the clips for next week showed her saying somethign SO INEXUSEABLE to Ron that I think it may just be the worst thing I’ve ever heard one contestant say to another. And that’s *including* Jonathon and Victoria! :-o As they say on TWOP, “Free Ron!”

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When I close my eyes, I see flashing pixels

by Marilyn on April 19, 2005

blogging blinkieSo I decided to put my blinkies back up today (I’d had them up when my simlair.com site was live and then took them down in January). Good lord, I have a lot. Of course, I had to go find some more too. I can honestly say (with no small amount of shame, mind you) that I’ve spent the better part of my day dealing with these itty bitty graphics.

So yeah. I think I’m over that now. But as for ways to kill an entire day, it’s not too bad. :) I even *organized* these blinkies into categories. Categories, people! I must be stopped!

In other news, I’m on cycle day one today. Now when Shannon called yesterday to see if I’d had a beta done (in your dreams!) and I told her I had a :bfn, she scheduled me an appointment to come in to get probed tomorrow morning before MOPS. She also said, “You want to try one more month with the clomid?” One more month?? As opposed to what? So this makes me wonder if they’re not thinking about trying anything… more progressive in the months to come. I will have to ask tomorrow about “future plans”.

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How I spent my weekend…

by Marilyn on April 18, 2005

So…it’s another one of those days. Between Sunday and Tuesday. Nothing really happening. Even though I had that awful :bfn, the weekend wasn’t so bad.

I do not think it means what you think it means...

Friday night we went out to dinner. We’d gotten our tax return direct deposited that day (coincidence? I think not.) and K wanted to treat us. He even let me pick. So naturally I picked Macaroni Grill. I love that place! Of course, I didn’t pick until we were about five minutes away, bombing down the interstate.

Decisions are hard.

Anyhow, so we get there and of course the place is packed to rafters. We expected that. K put our name in, was told 30 minutes, 35 at the most. We got our cheesy pager thingie and found a seat. The seat was actually pretty good… overlooking the kitchen area, especially the gal who works the big brick oven. It was fascinating seeing her put all these dishes together (and a LOT of people were ordering the Twice Baked Lasagna and Meatballs!). 30 minutes passed pretty quickly. Then 35. Then 40. So K went up to ask where we were on the list. 10 minutes out, he was told. Okay, sucked that it was taking so long, but 10 minutes was doable. We were, however, getting hungry. And H was quickly losing his good humor. It was nearly 8 o’clock at this point.

Then the family from HELL showed up. Two women with their copious amounts of obnoxious children. One of whom stole K’s chair while he was checking on the status of our table. :-x They kept kicking me too, trying to climb on the marble bar I was sitting at and yelling at the poor cook at the oven, demanding she give them dough to play with. I could feel my blood pressure starting to skyrocket.

We heard them call for “Brown, party of two!” and joked about going up there and saying, “That’s us.” They would point at our son and say, “But there’s three of you.” And K would say, “Yes there is. She was pregnant when we put our name in. ” :dry

Ten minutes came and went. My good humor was GONE. We started talking about leaving. Soon, it has been a whole hour since we’d first shown up. AN HOUR. Other people had been seated long before us and more had come in in the meantime. The place was packed and I was hungry and we all were cranky. K finally went up to the hostess, prepared to give her a piece of his mind when our pager buzzed. Talk about being saved by the bell!

So we finally got our meal. All’s well that ends well, I suppose. But gee whiz, you think they coulda told us it would be over an hour when we first got there! Or at least comp us our glasses of chianti. ;)

I do not think it means what you think it means...

Saturday … what the hell did we do Saturday? We went to KFC for lunch and got gas ($40!! :blink) and looked around ShopKo. I found some fantastic New Balance sneakers that were on sale. But alas, I lack the :money. But they fit fantastic. They look a heck of a lot better than the sneakers I’m wearing now which look like they’ve been chewed on by a whole pack of lions. Better than my pretty sneakers though, because those have no arch support and my sore ankle starts to really hurt after wearing them for more than an hour.

Maybe after I get another design job. Course, they won’t be on sale any longer. I know my luck. ;)

I do not think it means what you think it means...

Sunday was typical Sunday stuff. Church, of course. We got some lunch at TGI Fridays because we had a coupon. Aren’t we exciting people? But we did eat out a lot this weekend, and that is unusual. We stopped at Walmart after that to pick up a few items including a new trash can. You have no idea how badly we needed one. K wanted to get a giant curbside-style can but I quickly nixed that idea. The one we did get is quite a bit bigger than our old one so that’s gotta count for something. He just doesn’t want to have to take out the trash as often. I know him.

We were going to watch our friend’s son for them, but turns out we didnt’ have to. We were both pretty relieved, as the boy is sweet, but can be hard to watch. He’s 3, nearly 4, and he DOES NOT TALK. So instead we surveyed our barren backyard and then climbed to the top of the hill at the back of our property and walked along it, spying on our neighbors backyards. Which of course made us feel even worse out about barren backyard. Alas.

I do not think it means what you think it means...

Today was supposed to be t-ball practice. I was literally opening the garage door and H was getting his shoes on when we got the call that it was cancelled. Why? It’s SNOWING outside. And has been since about four o’clock at least. Ridiculous. But I’m glad I don’t have to stand around in the snow freezing to death. H was disappointed though.

Now? Waiting for K to get home. He’s not usually this late, but perhaps the weather has traffic backed up. Anyhow, that’s it from here. Ta ta for now!

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God, I suck

by Marilyn on April 17, 2005

Did I break another hpt?

Yes. Yes, I did.

I don’t know how I keep doing it, but I do. But judging from my swinging moods this morning I’m gonna guess that’s PMS rearing it’s ugly head. Still, we’ll go out sometime today and pick up another HPT and I’ll test later.

How hard do I suck right now? Pretty hard.

I mean, I can *almost* understand breaking the fancy digital style HPT. Because they’re so fancy. But a regular old cheapo Answer? That takes talent, let me tell you.

Add on that I had some totally cruel dreams last night, about feeling a baby move and all that. :sigh Still trying to remain positive, but it’s so hard.

Update: 6:59pm

Well, it was :bfn. Disappointed? Yeah. But somehow, even though I was *so* hopeful this cycle, I feel okay about it. At least right now I do. Tomorrow may be a different story altogether. I thought it was going to be bfn after this morning. I took apart the “broken” test and thought I could detect the barest of lines. One line, to be exact. But I’m glad I tested again, just to be sure.

I just put in a reorder for another round of Clomid. :fc seriously crossed for good luck this next cycle. I have to believe it’s going to happen for us. I have to.

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