So its been a busy weekend here at Casa de CallistaWolf. Looks to be a busy week too. So I’ll just mention some things on my mind now, before I find something else that desperately needs my attention. ;)
My Lilac Pixels business is doing VERY well right now. I’m working on three different jobs right now and am pleased as punch about it. Look for my portfolio to expand in the weeks ahead! The important thing is I’m having fun with it and I hope people are pleased with what I come up with for them. It has been keeping me VERY busy though and I’ll be pretty swamped this whole next week. Go me!
I’ve been having mixed emotions about the pregnancy. I go from being so worried about miscarriage that I’m almost afraid to go get an ultrasound later this week to very positive that everything is going to end up just fine and we’ll be bringing home a healthy baby in January. It’s crazy, I know. :nuts But I think more than being worried and negative, I feel good about things. Surprisingly good, actually. I have this great faith, at least right now :dry, that everything will be fine.
I just also *feel* better about things. Last time, when I was pregnant with Jackson, I never really felt good about it. I had the hardest time imagining bringing a baby home, even in the last week of my pregnancy. This time, I don’t really feel that. I can actually visualize bringing a baby into this house. I know it’s time. I just have to hold on to that, trust in it, remember it during the dark times.
Which isn’t to say that I’m not going to have panic attacks before each and every ultrasound and doctor appointment. (Can’t wait to see what the nurse taking my pulse and blood pressure says) That’s the weakness in me. I know I’ll worry. I worried, just a little, when I was pregnant with H.
There are times I wish I would wake up when it’s time to have the baby (healthy!) in January. But I don’t want to wish away the pregnancy either. I really want to try to enjoy it. But it’s going to be SO HARD.
But it will be worth it. :)
This is me. I'm a thirtysomething stay at home mom to three kids. For years I was a stay at home mom to one kid and trying very hard to have more. It took a LONG time (ie: 6 1/2 years), but finally Liam arrived and charmed us with his blue eyes and ginormous, round head. Then we got a shock: I was pregnant again and this time it was a GIRL. Our hearts and home are full at last and now that we're done having babies, we get to relax (snort) and watch them grow (not too fast now, you hear?). Thanks for coming by, feel free to dip into my archives, read my About and History pages (just don't do Jackson's Story without tissues!) and make yourself at home.
