Thank you so much, everyone, for your words of support and encouragement after yesterday’s (somewhat jumbled) post. I really appreciate it, it’s nice to know I have people “gunning for me” through this ordeal. Yeah, that’s a good word for it. Ordeal.

It shouldn’t be like this. I should be happy about trying to get pregnant, shouldn’t I? Or at least be happy to *be* pregnant, when and if the time comes, right? That’s just not going to happen. I will not enjoy being pregnant ever again, I’m sure. If you’d known me five years ago, you’d realize what a contrast that is. I loved being pregnant with H. I even loved being pregnant with Jackson. It was so fullfilling to be creating life. I know that sounds corney, but there you have it.

What I will need, to get through, is lots of distractions and lots of prayers and good wishes. And it sounds like I will be having the latter in spades. Thanks, guys, you’re the greatest.