February 2006

I’m not so ashamed anymore to admit that I watch “Grey’s Anatomy”.? I started watching it last year, when it premiered.? I was already watching everything else on Sunday nights on ABC so why not?? It looked mildy interesting.? I didn’t fall in love right away.? Parts of it were sort of tedious, I thought.? But I kept thinking, “I’m going to stick with it, it’s got to get better.”? This year?? It has.

Especially since last month or so.? I mean, it was amusing before then, don’t get me wrong.? But now I find myself looking forward to the show every Sunday night.? And I don’t find myself being disappointed in the least when it’s the only new show on Sunday nights (such as with the Super Bowl and last night’s episode).? Even more amusing?? I like it despite not caring for the title character.

Yeah, Meredith gets on my nerves.? It’s like, she’s a selfish character who doesn’t want to be a selfish character.? Take Sawyer on “Lost” for instance.? He’s selfish, he knows it.? He’s okay.? I don’t mind watching him. :)? But Meredith wants to be this noble heroine and she does some of the assiest stuff and it drives me NUTS.? Like what she did to POOR GEORGE.? George is like a lost puppy.? You just want to take him home and take care of him.? And what does Meredith do?? She sleeps with him.? KNOWING, full well, that he loves her for, like EVER.? Then she spends the entire next day ignoring him.? Because she has “issues”.? :dry

I knew last week, when I saw how things were going down that it was bad.? And until then, I only had a vague displeasure when it came to Meredith.? Sure, she bugged and I preferred some of the other characters but she was pretty innocuous.? Then she had to go and crush poor George.? You just don’t do that.? I mean, he’s the one that got Bailey to finally go ahead and have that baby! He’s GEORGE!

So last night when everyone found out what had gone down and then Izzy said to Meredith that she was going to take George’s side?? I *loved* that.? And then CRISTINA started to chew Mere out some too, which surprised and delighted me some.? Then of course McDreamy had to go and tell Mere she wasn’t that bad, without even really knowing what she did in the first place.? Urgh.? And this whole “we’ll be friends” thing is just a disaster waiting to happen.? Just you wait.

The show is like ramen noodles, chocolate, or Big Macs.? It’s like CRACK, people.? It’s so bad for me, but so GOOD to watch.? If you have an opening on your Sunday night lineup or a space in your TiVo programming, PLEASE give it a shot.? You can thank me later.

Blech and moan and yawn and cough….

So all this thinking that I was feeling so much better was apparently rather foolhardy of me.? This morning I woke up (when I woke up, which was none to early let me tell you), I felt as if I’d been murdered in my sleep and then resurrected “Frankenstein” style.? My nose was plugged, my ears were plugged, my throat was raw, the coughing wracked my body sending chills and pains hither and yon, leaving my throat so closed up all I could do was wheeze when I breathed.

:sigh

So any plans that we had today sorta when up in a plume of mucus and Vick’s Vapors.? I’m back to feeling weak-headed, dizzy, tired and achy.? LOVELY.? Because I didn’t have enough of this song and dance last week. :dry? I’m hoping and praying and sacrificing cats to the belief that this is a one day sort of deal.? That I’ll wake up tomorrow fresh as a daisy and ready to take back the world.

I can dream, right?

In the meantime, I’m watching “Gone with the Wind” on Turner Classic Movies.? Easy to watch because I’ve seen it already a bajillion times and read the book even so if I zone out for a minute, I won’t miss anything.? Plus, it’s always sort of fun to marvel at the unimaginable selfishness of Scarlett.? But we wouldn’t have her any other way, would we?

Where was I?? Anyhow, I’m hungry but I’ve been left here, the boys have sought out more interesting avenues.? I’d get up and fix a bowl of soup if I had the head for it right now.? So here I’ll sit, moaning and wheezing until they see fit to return and make over me in the fashion that I deserve.

There, was that self-centered enough? :)? I hope I got that part right, at least.

Two in one month!? Whatever will we do? ;)? I’m sure you’ll all get over it jsut fine.

Right now?? still sick.? Feeling a lot better than I was, say, Wednesday.? But still very muchw ith the sick.? Today?? It’s been the THROAT FROM HELL.? Which of course includes some rather persistant dry coughing that hasn’t help with the THROAT FROM HELL in the slightest.? You know what does help (seeing as how I can’t actually take anything that’s going to help me feel the slightest bit better)?? Drinking cold things.? Today I had a cherry Slush from Sonic and it was HEAVEN.? It hurts to swallow but somehow the cold makes it better.? I’ve decided that all I need to do is just drink something constantly.? Shouldn’t be too hard, right?

What does this have to do with the happenings inside my womb? ? Not much, on intial inspection but the fun thing was that this morning I woke up to the smell of CAT PEE (my most favorite smell in all the world).? All the more impressive because my nose was stuffed up.? See?? It’s that crazy pregnancy nose thing again.? I can smell EVERYTHING.? Turns out, nothing amiss in our room (which would be VERY impressive considering the cats are never, ever, EVER allowed entry).? But the loft?? Dear GOD in heaven.? I’m not sure exactly what he pee’d on, but that cat got something but GOOD.? K, bless him, took care of it since if I’d gotten too close I would have surely hurled. ? Love that nose.? So my point is: my pregnant nose is strong enough to surpass even the evil sick.

Listened on doppler again this morning, as usual. We are, unfortunately, out of ultrasound goo.? They say you can use lotion but I was just NOT having any luck.? Static-y and I just wasn’t hearing that heartbeat.? Panicked?? Just a little.? But I knew that kid was in there.? I’d been pretty sure I’d felt some squirms in there last night, as I was going to sleep.? And the squirms were in the spot where I’d been hearing the heartbeat. Still, I wanted to hear.? I needed that confirmation.? Eventually, we gave up on the lotion because it SUCKED.? K helpfully offered the lubricant he keeps in his bedside drawer. :blush I didn’t even realize he still had that stuff.? But once upon a postpartum time, it came in very handy.? And that?? Worked much better and there was the heartbeat, strong as ever.? Whew! Counting 160 bpm, as usual.? Grow, little bean, grow!

I still have this crazy thing for hamburgers.? Especially McDonald’s cheeseburgers.? I haven’t tried In ‘n Out since this cheeseburger craving came into being, but I wager it’d be something to behold.? Damn, I don’t need any ideas.? Now I’m trying to figure out how hard it would be to try to go to In ‘n Out after church tomorrow.? Not good! Anyhow, where was I?? Oh yeah, hunger.? Yeah, it’s pretty constant.? The nasty virus stalled some of the hunger out, but not all of it and I’ve stayed pretty hungry through it all.? I hadn’t gained any weight at my last appointment though, so I’m hoping that’s holding true now.

(Before any of you freak out, this is just how I do it.? I never gain much weight when pregnant.? The first time around, with my son, they kept sending me to nutritionists and making me vast quantities of fat.? I didn’t start gaining any weight until I hit 20 weeks and even then I only gained less than 20 for the entire pregnancy. With Jackson, I didn’t gain anything.? Not a single, living pound and my doctor knew that was okay.? It did not contribute to his death, at all.? He was completely formed, healthy and functional.? It was just that fershlugina cord around his neck.? Anywho.? Expecting not to gain any weight this go around isn’t too crazy an idea, is all I’m saying.)

The belly is a-growin’.? I can still fit in my jeans, but that’s simply because I have this jeans thing, where I buy a size or two too big.? But they’re getting AWFUL snug.? And as I mentioned before, I’ve started feeling tiny movements.? Only when I’m laying down though, especially when laying on my stomach.? Feels less like butterflies, like everyone says, and more like little interior pushes and squirms.? I’m looking forward to when these get a little more regular.? Even though I know when I’m not feeling them will make me nervous.

I think that’s all.? I covered all the big bases.? Excited?? More and more each day.? This level 2 ultrasound will be great for getting us into the “spirit”, I’m sure.

Being that I didn’t post anything yesterday, and the title of my last post, I thought maybe some of you out there (are there any of you out there?) might think the worst had happened at last. Alas, I am recovering.? And so is my son.? You know who isn’t recovering and who is currently in the throes of the evil sick?? K, my ever-loving husband.? Surely, this is penance for the remark he made to me the other night about “wanting to be sick”.? Makes sense to me!

No, seriously, I feel bad for the guy.? He’s taken the day off work, and slept until about 30 min ago.? Course he’s lucky and got to take some medicine and now is feeling a bit better. Yeah, medicine would help. If I could TAKE SOME.? So hopefully the sick has made all the rounds it plans on making and will be exiting the premises shortly.? Because I’m TIRED of it.

A few things, in the meantime:

• Irrational as it may seem, and unlikely as it is, I’m VERY glad Sasha Cohen got the silver for women’s figure skating last night.? Perhaps it’s a throw-back to the Cold War years, but I didn’t want Irina, the Russian powerhouse, to win the gold last night.? Back in the day you rooted for America first and after that ANYONE but the Russian.? So maybe that’s why.? But I also didn’t like the way she’d clomp around off the ice.? Yeah, I’m a bitch.? And her hair?? Ugh.? :roll I was SO happy for the lovely Japanese girl who did win the gold though.? She earned it and her reaction when she realized she won was PRICELESS.? Good times, people.? Good times.
• I try not to talk about “All My Children” much because it’s a tacky, tacky soap opera.? But I do watch it at lunchtime and I do have to say the current storylines?? Drive me batshit.? Erica’s aborted baby lives?? Kendall actually is considering going back to Ryan instead of flinging herself at Zack?? Babe abducted by nutso Janet and everyone just assumes she skipped town? Dixie is back in town after years of being DEAD and of course no one sees her?? ARGH.? Course, it’s got to be noted that one doesn’t watch soap operas for the reality but I’d like them to at least TRY.
• I’m 18 weeks pregnant today.? Dear LORD, that’s nearly halfway through!? Especially when you consider this baby will be born at 37 or 38 weeks.? Hot dog! Heard the heartbeat this morning (of course I listened!? I don’t miss a day!), very strong, and very MOBILE.? Baby is on the MOVE.? Maybe one of these days I’ll actually start to feel the movements.? The ultrasound is in a little over a week from now.? Anyone wanna put up guesses for what “flavor” we’ve got brewing here?? I’m assuming boy until I hear otherwise. :lol
• I really, really, really need to get some work done.? Soon as I take another nap.? Or two.