Ironic I should post about sleep issues after I’ve posted a post praising the heavens for my wee infant sleeping through the night. But all you out there who have tripped down this particular path before know that just because a baby sleeps through the night one night, it doesn’t mean they’ll sleep through the night EVERY NIGHT. Unless your baby is perfect. In which case, I don’t want to hear about it.

It’s going okay, Liam hasn’t recreated his miraculous feat of sleep yet. But I don’t really (entirely) expect him to either. Last night, though, was particularly atrocious. Of course it was, it was my night to deal with him. Kile had put Liam down in his crib last night while he was playing on the computer. And, holy cow, the child did sleep in his crib. But because of this we didn’t get his diaper changed, or make sure he ate before we ourselves went to bed. So we had to wake him up to change his diaper. Which, at that point, might as well take him into bed with us because he’s already awake. And he ate a little, but not a lot because the poor lad was still pretty sleepy. But then he was up, off and on, all night long. This morning I took one look in the mirror and said, “Oh good Lord, it’s a coffee day.” (I don’t have coffee every day, usually just on the weekends and on particularly rough mornings)

Ahem.

So you’re probably wondering why we didn’t just put him back in the crib and try to have him sleep there. This is a good question. By this point in infancy with Harry, I was more than ready to get him into the crib. We all slept much better after he slept in his crib. This time? I’m the one that’s not ready. I don’t doubt that we could probably get Liam to sleep in his crib fairly easily. Sure, I imagine I’d have to get up a couple times a night to tend to him, but he would eventually get it. But I don’t think *I* could handle it. He would be in a whole other room. And while that room shares a wall with mine and we do have a baby monitor (one that I think has been used a grand total of two times since Liam was born), I wouldn’t be content with just that. No, I would have to get up, go into that room and place a hand on his back or chest to feel it rising up and down. I do that all night long while he’s with us, for sure. I’ll wake up briefly, just long enough to feel for his breathing. How much sleep would I lose if I had to get out of bed and venture into the nursery? Not to mention the sleep I would lose if I just lay there awake, worrying?

So yeah, Liam still sleeps with us. Not only that? He’s not in the co-sleeper anymore. :blush We were all happier with him snuggled in with us. Even though our bed isn’t really big enough for that sort of situation (we have a queen, shame of all shames), we make it work. If Kile and I wake up with cricks in our necks, then so be it.

I’m not ready to separate Liam from myself. I worked so hard to get him, I don’t want to be overprotective, but I can’t just let him go either.  Eventually, I’ll have to make myself do it. He’ll have to sleep in his crib eventually. But right now, I sleep a lot easier knowing he’s right there next to me.