And the war rages on. 90% of this war is being waged against myself, which is just silly.? My cell phone service contract is up, and should I choose, I can upgrade my phone with Cingular at a handsome discount.? Nice, huh?? And just in time since the battery on my other phone has gone kaput.? I accidentally “over-charged” it and the battery hasn’t been able to hold any sort of charge ever since.? I can still plug it in and use it while it’s plugged in, so that’s something.? I haven’t historically used the cell a lot, but in the interest of saving some money, we recently cut our long-distance service way back on the landline.? This was done, assuming that we would just use our cell phones to make long distance calls.? You following me?
For the last year or more I’ve wanted to get a Motorola Razr phone.? I don’t know why, except that I’m a trend lemming.? They seemed cool to me.? And I figured if I was making some money with my design business, I could get one as a treat to myself.? This month was pretty bare on the business front but we’ve recently brought in some $ so I took another look at my cell phone options.? And I thought I was being very compromising when I expanded my search from the Razr’s to include other phones.? I finally narrowed it down to the LG CU500 and the Cingular Sync (otherwise known as the Samsung a707).? I decided the Samsung was my favorite.? You think that’d be end of the story, right?
Well, I knew Kile was thinking we shouldn’t spend the money on it.? Even though I’d already said it could be my birthday present (and probably Christmas present as well).? It’s true, we should probably save back the money.? The solution would then to be to get one of the free phones Cingular is offering right now.? Just my luck, those phones all but turn my stomach.? Maybe that’s because I spent the better part of the last week immersed in such features as 3g networks, 2 megapixel cameras, mp3 players… suddenly a little vga camera and some stupid java games seem hardly worth the effort.
I’m being a brat.? I know it.? It’s just, neither of us have had any chance to do anything for ourselves lately.? I haven’t had my hair cut in months.? We needed to save the extra money that month and every month since.? Have I mentioned my hair looks like donkey dung and is actually FALLING OUT IN CLUMPS?? Anyhow.? I bought a pair of jeans a couple months back for $15 from Walmart because my other pre-pregnancy jeans were falling off they were so large.? And I still feel guilty about doing that because of the look I got when I wore them and Kile realized they were new. I was just so looking forward to doing something unabashedly for myself.
It’s selfish.? I know it’s selfish.? But I’m in a funk right now anyhow and you know how women are with retail therapy.? It probably wouldn’t help anyhow, that’s the kicker.? Oh well.? Ho hum.? Moving on.? Cellphone-less, of course.
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Barbara (1 comments.) 11.28.06 at 9:05 pm
Hey, found your blog on the Randomizer. Your story of Jackson’s birth was very touching. I can imagine that sharing his story has helped you to recognize his very important (yet too short) life. After I had a miscarriage, much like yours after Jackson (we had one u/s that indicated everything was fine, then one a week later that indicated growth and heartbeat and all doing well, and then a few days later, no heartbeat), I found that I needed to find ways to recognize her life and telling her story was one of those ways.
~Peace to you
Susan (37 comments.) 11.29.06 at 6:46 pm
As someone who just finished the cell phone research game (I decided on the LG Cherry Chocolate.), I understand. I also heartily approve of retail therapy. Sometimes a little bit goes a long way. By the way, by purchasing my new phone online, I got an extra $50 off of what I’d have paid in the store. I’m not sure if Cingular does that, but Verizon does.
callistawolf (20 comments.) 11.30.06 at 7:59 pm
Susan - I appreciate you not telling me I’m being selfish.
Even though I know I am.
Barbara - Welcome to my blog! Make yourself at home, put your feet up, help yourself to come cocoa.
That said, thanks for your kind words. Even after all this time, it’s still hard. Both Jackson and the miscarriage. But yes, vocalizing it helps immensely.
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