I’ve been remarkably calm so far this pregnancy. It may not seem like it, but if you’d been inside my head during the first three months (or heck, the whole nine months) of my last pregnancy, you would realize what a basket case I was. I don’t know why I’m so calm this time around, but Kile may have hit the nail on the head last night when he said “the pressure is off.” It’s true. For so many years we were desperate to have another child, to give Harry a sibling. And there was this enormous pressure to have a baby at last.
This isn’t to say that if something went wrong this time that we wouldn’t be devastated. I know I would be. But I don’t feel the same pressure to have a successful pregnancy like I did before. I feel like this is all icing on the cake. This is the “good stuff” right here, the little bonus we weren’t expecting but are so glad to have.
So I’m pretty calm about this first doctor appointment. Shoot, two years ago had the nurse called the day before my first appointment to reschedule I probably would have had a bird. What? Wait one more day to find out if my baby is still alive? Are you kidding me? But when my doctor’s office called on Tuesday to ask if they could reschedule me to Thursday morning at 10:30 instead of Wednesday morning at 10:30, I was fine with it. What’s one more day? Another centimeter on the ultrasound, I’m sure.
Of course, now that the time is here, I am feeling a little jittery this morning. Kind of that nervous excitement. I have some of that same, familiar panic in my chest, but I’m trying to ignore that feeling. Only good thoughts, right? Are you guys going to be sending me positive thoughts this morning? It’s 8:14 my time right now, my appointment is in little over two hours from now. I’ll send a Twitter update when I can (check my Twitter or look in the Twitter section of my sidebars to see the update). You know, it’s almost a shame I’m pregnant because I could totally use a shot of serious alcohol right now.
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Susan (37 comments.) 09.13.07 at 9:25 am
Good luck! I said a prayer for you and can’t wait to hear about your fantastic appointment.
Liz (55 comments.) 09.13.07 at 11:56 am
I’m so excited for you. I admit, I cheated: hoooray for 4/08/08! Did you look for goods between the teeny legs? Or not just yet?
I think Kile’s probably right, you have less pressure. Which isn’t to say that you care any less, just less pressure for Harry to have his sibling. Now you just get the joys of the Bonus Baby, your blessing.
jeanie (5 comments.) 09.13.07 at 3:20 pm
Checked your twitter out - congratulations on a healthy foetus and good luck on a lovely Aries baby!!!
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