I’m feeling a lot better this morning.  Things always look worse in the middle of the night.  I wish I could say that was the end of the evening but it wasn’t.  Liam woke back up a while later and wouldn’t go back to sleep.  We sat with him, rocked him… nothing doing.  Finally figured out he must be hungry (dur…) when he had his fists constantly crammed in his mouth.  Yes, we’re qualified.  Most of the time.  After he sucked his milk down in record time, he still seemed out of sorts.  He was arching his back and grabbing at his feet.  Kile was inspired to check his feet and as it would happen, he had a hair wrapped around three of his toes on the one foot.  Poor kid.  So once we got that taken care of (amid much howling), he fell asleep rather easily and we were able to lay him back down.  We crawled into bed ourselves at 3am.  Tired doesn’t even begin to cover it.

I slept until 9am, when my bladder insisted that I get up.   Today has gone fairly well so far.  We took the van over to Walmart for a much needed and far overdue oil change and here in a few minutes, we’ll be going to watch a late matinée over at the movie theater.  Thank goodness for grandparents who are willing to watch the baby, eh?  Harry will go with us though.  He needs to do something other than play Xbox.

Anyhow, I’ve been thinking about resolutions.  I’d like to make some this year.  I feel a little better when I have some goals to work toward, something I can pick out and remind myself of when I’m feeling challenged and under-motivated.  So here’s what I have come up with:

• I want to be better about handling conflicts.  I need to realize when I can’t “fix” it and learn when to step aside and ask for help.  It’s natural to want to do anything and everything to make it better but the problem is losing myself in the struggle.  I want to keep myself and my dignity.
• I hope to rise to the challenge of having two small children.  That will be an entirely new experience for me and frankly, it’s something I haven’t considered much this far.  I’m hoping that our laid-back natures will rub off some on the kids but I’m sure it will be a challenge regardless.
• I want to get some parts of my house cleaned out and cleaned up.  My room is a big one.  This would be essential should we end up getting the king sized bed that we’d like to have.  Other areas: the garage, Harry’s room.
• We need to at least lay the groundwork for landscaping the backyard already.  This means putting in a sprinkler system.  Should our financial plan hold, we should be able to manage it this summer for sure.  It would be great to get a patio of sorts in.  If we could do the whole thing?  PERFECT.
• I’d like to get myself into shape after the baby is born.  Since I don’t plan on being pregnant again, it’s time to get serious about getting myself into shape.  This needs to be a big priority.

There you have it.  Hold me to it, internets!