GAH.  How did it get to be Thursday AGAIN??  Didn’t we just have one of these?  Like, last week?  You know what this means, right?  It means I officially have three weeks until this baby is HERE.  As in, not in my belly anymore.  As in, needing to wear clothes and diapers and such things.

It’d be helpful for her to have her own room somewhat ready by then.  But I’m starting to make peace with the fact that it might not happen.  Liam might not be moved into Harry’s room by the time Evie is here.  Because having him in there is only really important to ME, apparently.  Kile has said (and I quote), “If he’s not moved into there by the time the baby is here, it’s not the end of the world.”   So it doesn’t really matter that I thought him not being moved by the time Evie is here would, in fact, signal the end of the world. He said it wouldn’t so I guess that’s that.  Who me, bitter?  See, it’s more than just having a chance to decorate Evie’s room (which I’m literally itching to do), but I wanted to get Liam established before the baby is here so we could minimize possible trauma.  We’re foisting an awful lot of change on the poor fella.  And I thought having him situated in his new room before the baby was here would be the best possible idea.  Maybe then he wouldn’t associate the change with the baby, you know?  Also, it would eliminate guest room issues having him moved.  Kile’s parents and particularly his mother are going to be here when the baby is born and for a short time afterward.  If Liam were moved in time, then they/she would just stay in the guest room, no problem.  However, if Liam is still in his room, thanks to him being a picky sleeper, we would probably have to have them/her sleep in OUR room.  Which would be fine, of course, but our room is a STY still.  It would require cleaning the room, bathroom, etc.  And if we don’t have time to clean Harry’s room and rearrange furniture in order to move Liam in there, then we certainly don’t have time to clean our room.  See my point?  GAH.  But anyhow.

I’m also sorta spazzing out because we are missing some essential baby gear.   Now, I knew this would likely be the case after my baby shower and knew we would have to go get some things.  But on the other hand, I know my husband and I know rounding up these things will be akin to pulling teeth.  (How is it that after all this time he has no concept of a nesting woman?)  I desperately need a Boppy cover.  Not just becuase this baby is a girl and she shouldn’t have to recline upon a blue alphabet Boppy, but because after all this time it is FILTHY.  And no amount of wiping with a wet washcloth is going to help here.  I also want to have the baby book by the time she is here.  Because I know how it goes.  It’s not the first child and if I don’t get on this sort of thing sooner rather than later, then later sort of becomes NEVER.  There are other things we need too, like more newborn and 0-3 month onesies, washcloths, diapers, a snuggle nest to keep in our bed for her to sleep in (because we aren’t even pretending not to co-sleep this time), the letters E, V, I and E for her wall, some Born-Free bottles because I still don’t know how feeding will go and even if breastfeeding goes great, we’ll still need some for expressed milk, a changing pad cover that will go with the new room decor and certainly more wee little outfits to bundle her up in.  Right now, everything we’ve been so generously given looks so huge (and at 3-6 months, it pretty much is though even the 0-3 look a lot larger than I suspect she’ll be) and remembering Liam, I’m fairly sure there’ll be some desperate trips to Babies R Us to procure more preemie and newborn sized outfits.

I know you’re all right.  I’m worrying and obsessing too much.  This stuff will all take care of itself in time.  Not having it taken care of now is stressing me out, though.  And I have a non-stress test in a little over an hour from now and I don’t need any more stress than that. Heh.