2008 August 12 — slackermama . com

I’m feeling a rising, panic-like feeling in my chest this afternoon. An almost virtual “the walls are closing in on me” sort of feeling. I’m not entirely sure why. I have the sensation that I could either bust out laughing or burst into tears at any moment. It’s not a pleasant feeling. I don’t enjoy it. I would like it to leave me alone.

The fact that Liam has had some fairly scary diapers so far today, the worst being the diaper when he woke up from his nap that had “spilled over” onto his clothes and the blanket in his crib. I think I used up half of the hand sanitizer before that little endeavor was said and done. GAAAAAH. What the heck, Liam? Do I need to feed you more bananas or something?

I’ve also been leaking up a storm today. Before Evie, I NEVER leaked. Now, I leak all the time. And today? I have been leaking constantly. I finally just stuck a receiving blanket in my bra. Really attractive, I assure you. At least I remembered to buy nursing pads at the store the last time I was there. Something I’ve been forgetting to do for like FOUR MONTHS now.

Speaking of Evie, she has a nasty rash and has for a while and I have no idea how to fix it.

I feel like I’m missing something. That I need something. Or maybe I need less of something. Or more? I HAVE NO IDEA. And, if you couldn’t tell, IT’S DRIVING ME NUTS.

My thyroid pills are helping, I think. But I don’t think they’re helping THAT much. It’s better but not like it should be, you know? I’m back from the brink so instead of being stark raving mad, I’m just raving mad. At this point, just being mad would be nice but some day, I hope to be just fine.

Does such a thing exist anymore?

Get the word out:

Each August Reno has this thing called “Hot August Nights“. Most years we are out of town for the festivities as they tend to coincide with our anniversary and we’re often down in the Bay Area visiting my family. But this year, we were down there in July for BlogHer and (gas costing what it does) we weren’t going to be going back. So, we figured if we had to be in Reno during “Hot August Nights”, we may as well join ‘em.

First, we thought we’d go catch a “Show n’ Shine” at the Grand Sierra Resort. That was an Epic Fail on our part because the place was a ginormous clusterfuck. No one could get into the parking lots unless they were driving a classic automobile (but people in normal cars were leaving? I have NO idea.) There were cops there directing (or trying to direct) traffic and there were no signs telling anyone where to go and the best we could figure out was that people had to find somewhere else to park and then WALK in. Which, if you’ve ever seen the Grand Sierra Resort (formerly the Reno Hilton), you realize that’s about a JOKE. So yeah… no.

We headed southwards towards the Atlantis. As luck would have it, we found an AWESOME spot very close to the casino doors (this was after some assholes seriously stole a spot out from under our noses and then we were able to get one just as good so it ended up being a FACE ON YOU sort of moment). We were all feeling a little stressed at that moment because OMG, there were so many people and they were all OBNOXIOUS. But before we knew it, we were over at the other lot ogling at nifty cars so it was all good. Here are some of my favorite pictures, you can see the rest of the set here.

Truly, “Hot August Nights” is for anyone that can appreciate a shiny car. Oh, and who doesn’t mind crowds of OBNOXIOUS people.

***

I drank the Kool Aid and bought “Twilight” the other night. As soon as I finish the book I’m reading (”Born in Death” by JD Robb), I’ll start in on it. I’m a little worried that I’m going to find it wholly ridiculous. That or incredibly addictive. I’m not sure which would be worse.

***

I kinda love Laurie Berkner. This is what Noggin has done to me. I’m seriously having to prevent myself from downloading some of her stuff on iTunes in favor of using that $ for “Dr. Horrible” instead (which I haven’t seen yet. I KNOW.). What would I do without Jack’s Big Music Show, Blues Clues and The Backyardigans? I might have to watch Oswald or Yo Gabba Gabba (or horror of all horrors: Nickelodeon).

***

Okay, I just got “Dr. Horrible” off of iTunes. It’s about time I watched it, don’t you think? Now here’s the question: can I resist watching it until I get my iPhone or should I just watch it now and be done with it? Also: why am I wanting to wait until I get my iPhone to watch it anyhow? Does that make me painfully nerdy?

Wait. Don’t answer that.

***

I saw a quick blurb on The Today Show this morning about Hillary Clinton’s campaign against Obama and how her advisors wanted to portray him as so foreign because he spent so much of his youth in Indonesia and… ahem… HAWAII.

Now, I’m sorry, I don’t often get political on this here blog and all but… SERIOUSLY???

Yes, Indonesia I get… but Hawaii? Uhm, last I checked, Hawaii was one of the 50 states in the United States of America so how does having roots there (and taking a vacation there, to boot) make him either elitest (according to McCain’s campaign) or unAmerican?

It’s crap like that that seriously makes my brain want to turn to jelly and dribble out my ear. I’d like to think that we’re all smart enough not to buy such crap but then considering the 2000 and 2004 elections, I’m having my doubts.

***

Lordy, is it Tuesday already? What the heck, yo?

Get the word out: