This has been a hard week. Partly because Evie is teething (I can finally feel the little buggers poking through her gums now!) and as such her sleeping has become a lot more schizophrenic. Partly because Liam is acting every inch of TWO YEARS OLD and I’ve about had it with his constant boundary testing. And partly because, well, I’m not taking thyroid medication. Again.
So, I’m mentally cringing in anticipation of the accusations I’ll get from you guys. I know I should have been more on top of things than I was. But I just don’t know HOW I could have been. I saw the doctor back at the beginning of August. He prescribed me 100mg of meds, 100mg less than I was taking before Evie was born. He had me go get my blood tested and sure enough, my levels were Not Good. I forget the number now (maybe I put it in a post somewhere? Far too lazy to go look for it), but it was fairly high. The idea was I would get my blood tested again in September and go back in to see him a week after that and we would re-evaluate my meds then.
Hmm. Riiiight.
The thing is, I cannot, cannot, take two small kids to get my blood drawn. Not when one of those kids is Liam. We don’t even have any labs near our house, it’s a good 20 minute drive to get to any lab. It just can’t be done without additional adult assitance. And Kile, well, he’s been busy at work. He can’t really take a lot of time off. It’s great that his job is so stable, don’t get me wrong. We definitely don’t want to rock that boat. So I haven’t pushed the issue. In truth, I haven’t made it a priority. And, to be honest, once I was able to get my blood drawn, I surely couldn’t go to the doctor with both kids either.
Basically, I’m trapped here at home with the kids. I cannot leave with them so I cannot leave, period.
And, unfortunately, I’m feeling the effects of it. My temper is short (not good when matched with Ornery Two Year Old), I’m easily frustrated, and I can tell that I’m circling the drain yet again.
So basically… when it comes to taking care of myself I am an Epic Fail. And I just don’t know what I can do anymore to pull myself out of this hole.
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