Thanks for the responses on my post about my “friend” headache. I’m really not that disturbed by it anymore, especially since writing that post. This blog has always been about getting things off my chest. And that’s a new tack I’m taking here in 2010. Get things off my chest while they’re bugging me, instead of letting it fester. So I vented it all over so that it wouldn’t have a chance to weigh me down any further. And you know what? It worked. God bless it.
I’ve made my peace with the situation. It is what it is. I don’t need that special brand of crazy in my life and I am far, far better for putting it behind me. I do get sad when I think of it, but anymore it’s usually more angry at them for being such tools to me or wistful of what could have been a lovely friendship had they tried to meet me halfway. But, again… it is what it is. And I’m done with it. I’m better when I’m not trying to suppress myself anyhow.
***
And another round of thanks for the comments on the post about Jackson that I wrote last week. It was sort of the same deal as writing about the friends. Though Jackson will never be a loose end that can be neatly tied up or cut off or whatever… it helps to vent my emotions about losing him. I’m not sure how frequently I’ll talk about it. Surely not as frequently as I think about it. But I will talk about it because I know this: talking about it helps. If you know someone who has lost a baby, encourage them to talk about it. They need to, when they’re ready.
***
I’m doing pretty okay now… a couple weeks into the New Year. I wouldn’t say I’m doing perfect by any stretch of the imagination. Shoot… is anyone? But even though I wouldn’t say I’m bursting at the seams with happiness, I’m feeling… good. Not too stressed (yet). Not too depressed (thank GOD). Just… good. Okay and moving along. That’s all I could really want, you know? I don’t ask for the world, just a comfortable little piece of it.
So no worries (or gloating, for you haters if you’re out there) about me and how I’m feeling. I’ve got no complaints. There are good days and there are bad. But it’s nothing I can’t handle. And as long as I have this blog to vent on, I’ll keep handling it just fine, thank you.
Sorry, the comment form is closed at this time.