Infertility Bites

Let’s just ignore the fact that today is 14dpo. That I’m currently feeling more than a little :sick because I’m hungry. That I had to take a NAP yesterday because I was so drowsy. That I keep running to the bathroom. This could all be psychosomatic or whatever. It doesn’t necessesarily mean I’m pregnant.

But wouldn’t it be cool if I was??

(BTW, I test tomorrow)

I’m officially nine days past ovulation today. Well… here in a couple hours it’ll be ten days past ovulation. But I’m still pretty sure that’s too early to be feeling *any* symptoms, even if I were pregnant.

Plus, I don’t know what constitutes symptoms this early on. Feel a lil :sick in the mornings, esp if I’m hungry. Have felt certain “twinges” within, and some things that almost feel like I do before I ovulate. A little more tired than usual, went to be early last night and the night before and wish I could go to sleep right now! Odd since we’ve been staying up till at least 12 a lot lately without trouble. Buuuuut…. I don’t know. I’ll believe it when I see it.

I didn’t even consider any of this as symptoms until this morning while we were in church and I was feeling so :sick and hungry and dizzy… and I was going, “WHY am I feeling this way??” and I just had a flash. Now I feel like I’ve jinxed the whole thing. A watched pot never boils and all that.

I’ll probably take a test either Friday or Saturday. Probably Saturday since I won’t want to spoil “H Potter 4 Day” with a :bfn. :lol

So they came to fetch the truck this morning. Of course, I had to take a picture. This was taken out of our upstairs loft window. I had a pretty good view! This whole truck business was big news here in town, made all the major newscasts. And it was kinda fun to crane our necks and try to see if we could glimpse our house on tv. I’m actually kinda proud that we had the worst wind in town yesterday (and today, but it’s much less). We cornered the market on overturned boats and semi trailers!

Though it wasn’t as amusing today as I had to venture out into the wind to go take a visit to the RE’s office. It’s the sorta conditions you have to grip the wheel with both hands and grit your teeth. NOT FUN.

The dr visit went well. And apparently, I forgot to update you all on my tests (Thanks Leggy for pointing that out. I’m such a yutz!). They all turned out normal, as I suspected they would. We didn’t even have to meet with the RE to go over them since there wasn’t really much to go over! I don’t know how I forgot to post this, but I did and I’m BAD. But there you go. Lightning just hit us twice, we’re that LUCKY. Anyone want to place bets on a third time?

I had FOUR follicles at the apt today. Well, three that are likely to become eggs. But they’re on both sides and I’m not sure the guidelines for releasing eggs…if you go “one side at a time” or not. At any rate, they looked beautiful, my lining was perfect…it’s GO time!

Hold me. :fc

Thank you so much, everyone, for your words of support and encouragement after yesterday’s (somewhat jumbled) post. I really appreciate it, it’s nice to know I have people “gunning for me” through this ordeal. Yeah, that’s a good word for it. Ordeal.

It shouldn’t be like this. I should be happy about trying to get pregnant, shouldn’t I? Or at least be happy to *be* pregnant, when and if the time comes, right? That’s just not going to happen. I will not enjoy being pregnant ever again, I’m sure. If you’d known me five years ago, you’d realize what a contrast that is. I loved being pregnant with H. I even loved being pregnant with Jackson. It was so fullfilling to be creating life. I know that sounds corney, but there you have it.

What I will need, to get through, is lots of distractions and lots of prayers and good wishes. And it sounds like I will be having the latter in spades. Thanks, guys, you’re the greatest.