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Self-consciousness and BlogHer

Perhaps, just maybe, it’s ironic that I’m speaking on a panel about overcoming introversion at BlogHer this year and I find myself feeling rather, well, introverted about it all?  I don’t know.  I never could really pin down the definition of irony, after all.  Dang that Alanis Morrisette.  She totally screwed me over with that one.

Some of you who are going to BlogHer this year have met me at past BlogHer conferences.  Some of you have not.  For those of you who have not, I want to be sure to tell you what to expect when and if you see me there.  What to look for.  We don’t get a really good physical representation of ourselves on these blogs and I so rarely ever take pictures of myself.  So here goes:

  • Despite the hip, new haircut, I’m really rather dorky.  It shows in my physical personna.
  • I am tall, about 5’8, and awkward with it.  I don’t wear heels because I don’t want to emphasize it.
  • I’m also large boned which makes me feel like a hulkish freak at times.  Tall and Large.  Fantastic.
  • Add to that all the excess baby weight that is hanging around.  So yeah, that’s my way of saying I’mon the chunky side.  I definitely have some extra padding (read: back fat, jiggly arms, thunder thighs, floppy belly, big ol’ boobs… you name it).
  • I wear glasses.  I take them off usually for pictures of myself but I do wear them all the time.  I can’t see, otherwise.
  • My clothes are either out of fashion or ill-fitting or both.  I’ve never been very good at knowing what looks good on me.
  • I have big feet, which will probably be wearing flip flops.  Unless I’m wearing jeans. Then I’ll wear sneakers.
  • My nails are messed UP.  I hope to have them painted and hopefully looking halfway presentable but they’re an issue for me right now.
  • My teeth aren’t so great either.  I have an enormous mouth and big teeth and they don’t look THAT great.  I see myself smiling in pictures and cringe half the time.  I hope to whiten them before going so at least they’ll be white, you know?
  • I’m not entirely sure I know what to do with my new ‘do.  I’ve tried a couple times so far and so far it looks pretty sad.  Plus, you know, mah hairs is all gone!  I’m not used to it yet.

So there you go.  Paints a pretty picture, huh?  I’m thinking I did one of these last year too.  Shows you what a self-conscious twit I can be.  But… there you have it.

Also: Am still stressing the budget.  I SO want to stay at the Westin on Friday night.  But Kile keeps hemming and hawing.  He tells me to raise the money.  RIGHT.  And how would I do that?  Perform a little magic trick and it’ll appear?  Voila!  Wouldn’t that be nice?  I’m going to try to sell some of my maternity clothes (now that I don’t need them anymore) that still look nice (the rest are getting donated) and see what that brings in.  I have my latest ad revenue check from BlogHer.  But beyond that?  Ehhhh…

I hate to even SAY it but I considered putting up a PayPal donate button in the sidebar.  You know one of those, “Help me go to BlogHer!” type deals.  But I don’t know, that just feels… weird.  I hate to even think it.  Still, it may come to that.  Perhaps I could offer up some swag to donators come August when the budget has righted itself once more and I can make it to the post office.

I don’t know.  I hate to ask anything of you guys.  You’re all so fabulous and I’m just amazed that I have any readers here at ALL.  You guys, for lack of a better word, ROCK.  I should be sending you guys swag just for showing up day by day.

Obligatory BlogHer Post

Everyone else seems to be posting about BlogHer this week, so I figured I should join suit.  I’m such a follower.  It’s amazing that I have a single original thought in my head sometimes, isn’t it?  I really should be ashamed of myself.

Oh, and if you are one of the unfortunate ones who isn’t able to attend this year and posts like this are making your head hurt?  Feel free to skip this one.  I give you a free pass.  I understand.

So.  Where was I?  (I had to take a small break to entertain Evie, who was requesting some face-time.)  Oh yes.  BlogHer.  The conference with which to end all conferences.  The Big Kahuna.  The Drunk Tank, if you will.

Every year, as much fun as I have, I always walk away with some regrets.  This year, I vow, will be different.  I’m sure there might be a regret or two (or three), but I am hoping they are NEW regrets and not the same old tired issues I had the year before.  After all, I want to foster personal growth and expansion here, don’t I?

With that in mind, I vow:

  • NOT to duck out on sessions on Day 2 like I always seem to do.  I was better about this last year.  But there were still a few times where I just hung out instead of going to a session and I feel, afterward, like this was time wasted, somehow.  This said, I do not regret missing the “speed dating” dealie and hope to miss it this year as well.  I’m all for putting myself out there this year, but even I have my limits.
  • I will introduce myself to more people and get more business cards, etc.  I was better about this last year, again, but there is definitely room for improvement.  This is like one of the major reasons for going to BlogHer in the first place and to let my insecurities prevent me from enjoying the legions?  Is just goofy.  I will spread myself around a lot better this year, I PROMISE.  I hope to return home with NO business cards left this year.   And a huge passel of cards from other people.
  • I will NOT be weighed down with tons of crap this year.  Now, I’m a lot less certain about my ability to uphold this one.  The future of our Westin hotel room is in jeopardy, after all, and I’m hoping to be able to dump swag there as needed.  I plan to carry my husband’s laptop (which is itty bitty and I normally detest it but for such an event, I can definitely see it’s merits) in the diaper bag.  Because, yes, I will have Evie with me.  I’m hoping to having her in a carrier, but I’ll still need a diaper bag.  Especially if I’m planning to have her in cloth.  Which I am.  So the less crap to carry around?  The better.  I will try to offload the swag as soon as I can.  Perhaps during the speed dating! (Two birds, one stone!  Sweet!)

Yep, Evie will be with me the entire time.  I will be putting Liam in childcare.  Harry will be staying in San Jose with my parents.  Kile will have Blessed Time To Himself.  I’m sure he’s looking forward to it.  I’m a little bit nervous about having Evie with me the entire time, but I’m sure she’ll be a good girl.  I’m thinking I’d like to find a good nursing cover so I don’t have to wrangle a blanket to cover her every time she wants to eat.  As for my own session (first thing, Friday morning!), I’m hoping that maybe I can foist her off on some good-hearted soul.  Tell me, if you’re going to my Introversion session, would you be willing to Evie-Sit?  Also, for the record, if anyone wants to hold her or something (particularly if they want to hold her so I can eat), PLEASE ASK.  I will, chances are, be more than happy to hand her off.  You know, provided you’re not an axe murderer or something.

Evie stands to be the better dressed of the two of us too.  I’m okay with that, at least for now.  Chances are the morning of Day One I will be fretting that I don’t look nearly cool enough to be seen amidst such an amazing group of women.  I’m thinking, however, that I’ll rock jeans (perhaps capris) and t-shirts.  Maybe a blouse.  I don’t know if I’ll be able to make any cocktail parties, but if I were, I would probably change for them.  As for shoes, comfort is key.  I will probably wear various and sundry flip-flops.  But if i’m wearing jeans, that might look silly.  So we’ll see.

I’m ordering business cards from Zazzle this year.  They have “Moo” shaped cards but you can order in smaller increments.  I’ve always had 100 cards and always come home with about 90 cards left.  Even if I hope to pass out more cards this year, I still doubt I’ll pass out more than 60.  So that’s what I’m going to get.

Wow, this has already taken hours upon hours to compose.  What a geek I am.

I guess my point (do I have one?) is that a) yes, I’m excited about going to BlogHer and b) I’m hoping to not make some of the mistakes I’ve made in years past.  I had other things I was going to say, but Liam woke up from his nap and he’s in a Mood.  The whining is seriously blocking any coherent thought from my brain.  I’ll leave you here and if I have anything else to say, then… I guess I’ll say it.  Later.

Oh!  One last thing:  Can I have breakfast with you on Day 1?  Please?  I’m all by my lonesome at this thing!

We have a winner!

Win a registration to BlogHer \'08!

First off, I want to thank you ALL for entering this giveaway.  It was so much fun to give away something that is so cool.  I quickly realized what the problem was: I wanted ALL OF YOU to win.  I really did.  I’m glad I left this one up to random.org because otherwise I would have never been able to decide.  Even letting the random integer generator pick for me is giving me stress because I know that while one of you is going to be SO happy, the rest are just as deserving of going to BlogHer as she is.

Without further ado… I fired up random.org this morning and this is what came out:

Wow.  How often does that happen?  That it picks #1?  I mean… that NEVER happens, right?  It must be destiny, RIGHT?  So who is lucky #1 in this giveaway?  Let’s have a look…

It’s Rhi, of Rhi in Pink!  Congrats, Rhi!  I’ll see you (and Mini Owen) in San Francisco!

Again, thanks to EVERYONE for entering.  I hope all of you that really want to go are able to, because I think everyone who wants to go to BlogHer should be able to go.  Call me crazy (and naive) but there you have it.  And if you aren’t able to go, well… you’ll be missed.  Know that.

Until next time… (and there WILL be a next time… I just love giving things away!) you all hang tough!  I’m leaving for Elko this evening so I imagine I have a busy day ahead of me!

I’m alive! (and I had fun!)

I made it back from my camping trip!  We left just before noon because Liam was in dire need of two things: a) a shower and b) a nap.  As it so happens, Kile was in dire need too.  Full details will follow, but despite a somewhat sleepless night, we all had a great time.  And the mere fact that I can even SAY that I had a great time and a sleepless night in the same sentence should be a testimony to how much we enjoyed ourselves.  Honestly, I’m glad we went and I can’t wait to share some of the pictures I have with you all.  I got some great ones!  I’m literally excited about these pictures.  Camping is GREAT for photography, I’ve decided.  There are just endless photo possibilities.

You’ll have to excuse me for now, however,  We need to go grab some dinner and do some shopping.  No rest for the weary!  I’ll be back (probably tomorrow) with lots of pictures and details.  In the meantime, you better get your butts over to my comment contest for the FREE BlogHer ’08 registration!  I’ve been really enjoying hearing you all tell me a) how much you need the free pass and b) what you’re looking forward to at this year’s conference.

A note to BlogHer conference newbies:  If you’re holding back because you think BlogHer is for bigger bloggers or for serious bloggers or people who know other bloggers (etc and so forth), then please reconsider.  BlogHer is great for EVERYONE.  I was a total newbie back in ’06 and I went and I’ve never been so glad.  So if you’ve never been and want to go, enter the contest!  Even if you don’t win, you should think about registering.  You’ll be SO glad you did!

I’ll see you in San Francisco

The tides have turned, ya’ll!  I used to be the one who never won anything.  I know I’ve talked about it on this here blog at least more than once.  BUT, it would appear lately that my good fortune just keeps rolling in.  All I can say about this is.. I feel very fortunate.  And you know what happens after you feel fortunate?  You want to share it with the world. Because you know what it feels like to be “on the outs”.  And you want others to feel what it’s like to have such good fortune.

And maybe, just maybe, you don’t really need the windfall that fell in your lap in the first place.  Heh.

Such a wonderful has happened to me today.  I found out from the Parent Bloggers Network (of which myself and my review blog are members) (btw, keep an eye on my review blog next week for a fantastic GIVEAWAY!) that I have won a free registration for the BlogHer ’08 Conference, to be held in San Francisco, CA this July 18-20.  Which is, as you know, a fabulous prize worth about $350.  I don’t know about you all, but I don’t have that kind of money laying around on a day to day basis.  Now BlogHer?  Is totally worth it.  But still.  It’s a lot of money, especially if you’re staying at home, like I am.

As fabulous a prize as this is, I already have my registration.  Since I’m speaking, BlogHer is covering my conference registration costs.  So you know what this means?

I’m GIVING IT AWAY!

Win a registration to BlogHer \'08!

Oh yes, friends.  I’m giving away one, fabulous conference registration to BlogHer ’08.  Two full, fabulous days of fantastic sessions, speakers and discussions, two fabulous cocktail parties and one un-conference if your heart so desires.  ALL OF IT CAN BE YOURS.

All you have to do is leave a comment here telling me what session you are looking forward to going to the most of all, should you win this fabulous prize.  If you can’t narrow it down to just one (I’m sure I couldn’t!), then feel free to list your top picks.  You have until midnight (PDT) on Wednesday, June 4th to enter.  After that, comments will be closed and I’ll be selecting a winner at random!  The winner will be announced in that Thursday’s post.

Sound like a good deal?  Well then put your thinking caps on and get commenting!  And feel free to spread the word.  I’m going KRAZEE, people!  Get in while the getting is good!

At BlogHer ’08…

I'm Speaking at BlogHer 08I don’t know if you knew, but I’m going to be at BlogHer this summer. Yeah, I may have mentioned it once or twice. I’m excited about it. I’m going to get to see some old friends and hopefully, some new ones. And all the even NEWER friends I might meet! The possibilities are endless and truly one of my favorite things about going to BlogHer is discovering new blogs and meeting new people. It’s a lot like summer camp that way, I guess (not that I’ve ever actually been to summer camp). Even though we’re going to be staying with my parents down in San Jose that weekend, we have actually reserved a hotel room at the Westin for Friday night, so I’ll only have to worry about commuting up from San Jose on Friday morning instead of both mornings (which was really stressing me out). That’ll be fun too, even though we’ll have two little kids with us.

I'm Breastfeeding at BlogHer 08Yeah, Evie will be hitching a ride with me for the duration of the conference. I’m guessing that even though she will be pushing four months, she’ll still be a perpetual “nurse me/hold me” baby. As for Liam, he will either camp out in childcare or sightsee around S.F. with Kile. Having both the kids with us means we can’t really go to the cocktail party. Either Friday OR Saturday (but especially Friday, when the party is at a nightclub). So it would seem we’ll be making our own fun instead. And you know? That’s cool. I’m just so happy that I’m going to be there PERIOD, that a cocktail party doesn’t make much of a difference.

I'm Wearing Cute Shoes at BlogHer 08But I’d be totally lying if I said that I wasn’t feeling very nervous too. I do every year, that’s true. Maybe not so much last year because I had Zoot as a human shield. But being around massive amounts of people tends to make my insides turn to churning acid.  I’ve purchased some nice clothes that I can hopefully wear some of to the conference.  I should probably hunt down some cute shoes, to be honest, but as far as fashion goes, I think I’m doing pretty good.  The rest of me? Well…

I’d like to think that I’ll lose a bunch of baby weight between now and July but I’m not hanging many hopes on it.  For one thing, I’m not taking thyroid medication.  This makes me nervous because it was the unhappy thyroid that caused me to pack on the pounds in the first place.  And, like a lot of women, I’m self-conscious about it.  I worry about what other women will think when they see me.  I see pictures of myself from past BlogHer’s and am horrified that people saw me looking like that.  And, truthfully, the weight is only part of that.  In general, I don’t care for how I look.  My hair rarely behaves or looks like anything remotely decent.  My face, particularly these days, is blotchy and uneven and I’m pathetically poor at applying makeup to improve the appearance.  My features make me cringe to see them: eyes too small, nose too wide, chin too large, teeth too discolored… Not to mention I’m too tall to begin with and my bones resemble those of a linebacker.  Nothing petite here.  All gangly and awkward.  Even when I do take my glasses off.

Me, sans glasses

I hope some of you won’t mind hanging out with me anyhow.  In the meantime, I’m going to try to work on my self-image and self-confidence.  I’ll get there.  Hopefully.