Okay, I know I’ve been out of the blog loop for an inexcusable amount of time. Knitting has completely absorbed my attentions the last couple years and while I’ve kept up on a handful of blogs, its safe to say that when it comes to blogging politics that I’m not entirely “up” on the latest dish.
I’ve been reading more and spending more time on blogs lately, even if I’m perhaps not blogging here myself as much as I probably should. And I’ve been noticing that things are… different. I mean, of course they are. Everything changes over time, regardless of whether we want it to or not. It’s inevitable. But sometimes you have to shake your head and wonder at the WHY and the HOW and the What are they THINKING??
There always some division between “big blogs” and “little blogs”. I can remember that from the olden days and how it was an oft discussed (and argued) topic at pretty much every BlogHer I ever went to. But it seems that division is even more pronounced these days. The “big blogs” are bigger, the “little blogs” are littler. How does one distinguish between a big and a little blog, you ask? Now, I’m not entirely sure of the answer here.
In my mind, at least, a “big blog” is presented with not just more readers and exposure, but with opportunities as well. Paid trips and swag and all that lovely good stuff. But yes, the primary factor would be readership. If you have a lot of readers and a lot of comments, then chances are you a “big blog”. If Pepsi flies you out to their headquarters or you are selected to “try and review” a new washer and dryer, then you are probably a “big blog”.
A “little blog”, on the other hand, would be someone who doesn’t have many readers and even fewer comments. (I think we can see where I fall in all of this… hello? Anyone still out there? Is this thing on??) A “little blog” doesn’t receive many opportunities for travel or swag or anything like that. I receive something to review from time to time, but no washers and dryers yet (dangit). Usually its more likely to be a book or some coupons or something. I don’t complain because, hey, at least I get that, right? Sweet! Some “little blogs” don’t get any opportunities at all. Sometimes, not always, there might be some resentment or jealously on the part of the “little blog” when they see all the goodies the “big blogs” get.
I’ve been jealous but only in the most superficial sense of the word. Heck YEAH I’d love a trip to NYC or Chicago (without kids!) to play with other bloggers and try out new products. Dang, who wouldn’t! That’s just plain awesome right there. But do I resent them because of it? Not really. Because they’re not me and I don’t really *know* them and how can I therefore pass judgement on them? That doesn’t seem entirely fair. I don’t care if someone thinks a “big blog” doesn’t deserve it because of their writing or their huge list of friends or whatever. Because it doesn’t really matter to me.
All I really care about when it comes to blogs, both big and little, is if I like what I read. Do I enjoy this person’s posts? Do they make think or laugh or cry or in some way pause in my day to reflect? That means so much more to me than what their readership is. Sometimes, yes, I do enjoy reading the “big blogs”, even though I know that person wouldn’t likely give me the time of day if they saw me at BlogHer. But I enjoy their posts so I keep coming back. And sometimes I enjoy a “little blog” that maybe only me and one other person read. But I like what they have to say and I want to read more.
And when it comes to this blog, what matters to me most is that I have some place that I can come and write out a bunch of words that may or may not get read by anyone else. It’s an outlet and a source of comfort to me. If you find yourself reading blogs or participating in the community with any goal other then finding an outlet, feeling comfortable, laughing, crying or thinking? Then maybe you need to stop and reevaluate what you are doing. Life is too short and the world is too scary of a place right now to indulge in anything negative simply for the sake of being negative.
Think about it.